The Dark and the Light
Red Nose Day and Me.
I made a charitable donation today.
That was impossible,
Not so long ago.
I am
Seeing the light at the end of a long, dark tunnel.
Finding the meaning
The happiness
The joy
The simple life I’ve longed for
For so long.
I can give now.
In many ways.
That was impossible
Not so long ago.
Still
I am trying to explain
To everyone who asks
Daily
Why I’m walking away
From this simple life
That I’ve longed for
it seems, forever
now that I’ve found it.
No sense.
My eyes can rest.
My to-do list has lost its urgency.
I am (forever) thankful.
I have love,
Life freedom
Financial freedom
Creative freedom.
Emotional
Spiritual
Mobile freedom.
Freedom. Period.
I am satisfied in life.
That’s all I’ve ever wanted.
What is my problem?
Do I have a problem?
I am so thankful,
Yet I am still so….something…
If I died tomorrow
Would I die happy, satisfied, fulfilled?
Complete?
Yes. No.
Outside of myself is where I need to go.
I’ve known that forever.
But where?
That’s the question that keeps me awake at night.
And why should
Where matter?
Isn’t it -
shouldn’t it be -
Why? that matters?
So, I donated.
A step in the right direction, yes?
Yet
It’s not enough.
Seemingly
I am not justified.
Or I am justified?
I am in need of
Definition.
Does my geographical location solve that?
The question of the day -
with a four day weekend ahead.
Hmmm.
Enlightenment ahead?
A girl has to hope.
And I do hope.