Falling far from fantasy
I lie living in a dream
The ground gives way below my feet
Is nothing as it seems?
If I had told you yesterday
You might have understood
The borderline was closer then
I’d done different if I could.
The answers still elude me
The questions haunt my soul
Decades spent out wandering
The journey takes its toll.
My compass is malfunctioning
My head and heart at war
Spinning, spiraling circles
I’ve been down this road before.
Mountains rise up before me
And valleys down below
Paths lead out in every way
I don’t know which way to go.
I will climb another mountain
Balance precariously on the ledge
Take another leap of faith
Or teeter on the edge.
A vast and wild wilderness
A pilgrimage before me
Turn and take the safer path?
Or leap and look for me?
Jump into my destiny
Catch the wind beneath my wings
Soar into another world
A place where I can sing.
There must be someone out there
I am half of a duet.
He must be out there somewhere
Alone I can't pursue it.
I can, but I prefer not
The yearning is far too strong
To join my heart, fulfill my soul
To feel that I belong
Entwined, entangled and unwrapped
Opened, exposed, uncovered
Reborn, renewed, revitalized
Detangled and discovered.
Patience will be my pillow
And a blanket wrapped around
Spread my branches, open arms
Keep my roots above the ground.
I won’t probe too deep for water
Or reach too far for sun
Yet my heart will remain open
As I walk or perhaps run
Toward my future, from my past
Seeking, searching soulfully
To find my self at last.